Silent relaxing sunday--wait it's Saturday. A day lost and found! :)

This week's GBE is about "Lost and Found."

I know a lot of people some years back thought that I'd lost myself. I was even told it was the better part of myself. It took me years to figure out that it wasn't true. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I always believed it to be true. Until I finally had the courage to admit to myself, that they were in the wrong; not me. 

That's the problem with some "friends." They aren't really your friends. Someone recently told me something that really hit home. It was profound even. 

She said: "The friend is not a friend. just a person with emotional gravity in your life."  

Well that's true. Granted, the comment she had made was from a completely different happening, but still it works. 

A lot of people are fortunate in having tons of close friends, even close friends that stick around their entire lifetime. I gave up on that notion a long time ago. I realized that mostly, friends will come and go. But, you must always stay true to you.

A lot of the time, we feel like a friends advice is something that is well-meaning and something that we need to heed. Sadly, there are some people in our lives that may seem like friends, when really, they aren't. They are negative influences that we need to cut the strings of. 

That's what happened with that friend. I had to cut them loose. I kept thinking, this person must be right. I mean, they've known me for a long long time now so they know me well right? So if they say that I lost the better part of myself from what I went through, then it must be true. 

But it wasn't.

It was a long hard road I traveled to be able to realize that. It's a good thing too, that I didn't listen to them. I wouldn't have become the person that I am today. Which is a person that has seen a lot of bad stuff, and suffered a lot. I've been a part of things that most shouldn't have to. Had to grow up too young. I have done all this, but reached a point of strength within me, that I know I wouldn't have found had I not suffered so much. I learned that I had to be the one to suffer to help others, to teach others, and to show them that yes... you can go through so much and still remain such a happy person. I suffered so they wouldn't have to. 

So I may have lost the "better" part of myself to that person, and a lot of others at that time. But what I found was a better woman that no longer allows herself to be put on the bottom shelf, shoved into the back. I am a woman who deserves to shine and who deserves not only the top shelf, but the window seat. To be shown off because really...

I am a Goddess

Maybe over-confident sometimes, sometimes bordering on one of the most difficult, stubborn, pain in the a**, beings on the planet, but I am me and I became that person after a lot of work.

And I'm still a Goddess so there.

Hugs and kisses and more to come!!

Til next time!!

Fshew, made it!